Me today – sorry to have missed my regular Sunday blog groups!
Me today – sorry to have missed my regular Sunday blog groups!
So I made it to the pain clinic in one piece – just! The body work did its utmost to stop me and it was probably the furthest that I have travelled in my motability chariot (in time – it was rush hour travelling into London, you understand!) – so our arrival at St Thomas’ was surrounded by a cacophony of feelings in back, hips and thighs, with the right hip spluttering the loudest.
Fortunately parking is never an issue because the carpark is so blooming expensive – but, any blue badge pals out there – did you know that at St Thomas’ you are able to park for free if you show your appointment letter and you actual blue badge to PALS. At Guys you can also park for free in the NCP carpark along the road by presenting your letter, NCP ticket and blue badge to security before you leave. Might have saved someone a small fortune there! What was an issue was getting into a lift from the basement to the ground floor – I mean, come on people, I am not sitting a wheelchair because I am feeling a bit tired. I can’t actually climb the stairs!!
The engine revived with caffeine and banana, we checked in to the pain clinic which faces directly opposite Big Ben and the Houses of Parliament – currently shrouded in scaffold. I always forget just what a wind tunnel is created along this stretch of the Thames and Wednesday morning was no exception – good job I was using my wheels because the icy gusts would have tackled me easily. As predicted the CNS was surprised and concerned when she saw me, but once I reassured her that the bodywork changes before her are down to the dreaded stretchy body parts, she went about checking the pain levels. I am pleased to report that once her little box of tricks “spoke” to my implanted little box of “tricks”, it was established that my switching on and off, general usage of the stimulator and recharging is all scoring full marks! Hurray.
Next the tricky part. Any chance of a retune? This was no problem and the external box turned off and then turned back on the internal box…..jump starting the battery back to life and automatically altering the sensation. The biggest difference is the feeling in the sole of my foot – it is difficult to describe, but the electrical pulses feel more rapid and “wider”. The pathway of the pain through my foot is so specific that I could draw it for you to see, so the area that needs to be covered by the neurostimulation is very specific and so very specific electrodes in the lead on the spinal cord need to be active. But how about getting some of that lovely electrical stimulation that knocks out the way my dodgy wiring sends perceived pain to my nerve centre – my brain – into my right hip and thigh??
Of course the proper response is that nothing can be altered for pains that haven’t been investigated – it wouldn’t be good to mask pain that is due to injury or a new illness. But of course in this case one bendy chassis is causing wear and tear on the bearings and axles, putting the tracking off massively. The biggest concern had to be keeping the pain coverage in my right side to the same level – it would be awful to lose the fantastic coverage i have. But with a little tweaking she managed to give me a little sensation in my hip and if I lean back into the chair (or better still lie down onto the electrodes) the strength of the stimulation increases. It doesn’t get rid of the pain or even mask it in the same way that it masks the nerve pain, but any little bit of relief this rust bucket will take!
So the bodywork may not have been replaced by a shiny, sleek sports model, but with a bit of fine tuning it is slightly more comfortable. (BTW the beach buggy above was Dunc’s first car, and whilst sparkly, not very comfortable!). Thanks for all the good wishes – really appreciated. Now I’m off to recharge my battery for a new week…..and in this case I assure you I am being literal, not metaphorical. Should take me a couple of hours to complete!
(BTW: any St Thomas’ pain/input patients out there – the booking system was changed last year and the nurses are no longer allowed to book our appointments. But since central bookings has taken over, quite a few of us have slipped through the net – hence why I had no appointment last year. If you have a problem call them or email the nurses at their catchy new address:
My lovely girl drew this image for me of our pain, different for us both but with the same underlying genetic cause, and these words by poet Ariana Dancu seemed to fit perfectly in rising above the flames of pain.
It has been a tricky week as the family visited my husband’s parents, but I was too unwell, sporting a chronic dislocation & increased pain, to make the long car journey. Instead I remained at home where I was able to relax, stay in my PJs and binge watch Netflix, but had to rely on my parents to look after me. Talk about feeling like a teenager again……
Lucy’s picture really depicts how my different pains have been all consuming this week….and yes, I am still sporting a snazzy velcro sling! Hopefully there will be a real post tomorrow!
Many of us bendies will relate to this! In fact the same thing happened to me – just replace the word masseuse with anaesthetist and the salon with operating theatre. You get the idea!
Life with a disability can sometimes give rise to unspoken questions and sensitivities, but amid the awkwardness there can be humour. The following is an edited version of a sketch by Angela Clarke who has Ehlers-Danlos syndrome, delivered for the BBC at the Edinburgh Fringe Festival.
I was away at a fancy spa and thought I’d indulge in a nice relaxing massage as a treat.
The softly spoken therapist, who was called something ethereal and calming like Summer or Melody or Zinfandel Blush, told me she would be using an aromatherapy oil of lavender picked by organically trained squirrels and mermaid tears.
The room was painted in calming shades of rice pudding, scented candles flickered around me and music, which sounded like whales fornicating, played in the background.
I was so preoccupied with getting onto the high massage table that I forgot to mention a vital piece of information – I have an invisible disability. Big mistake.
I have Ehlers-Danlos syndrome (EDS), a debilitating condition which affects connective tissue like skin and tendons and, among other things, means I injure easily.
It’s genetic. I got it from my mum. Worst birthday present ever. While some people with EDS have no complications, other than being super-flexible, I get chronic pain, frequent dislocations, and mobility issues. Mum, on the other hand, got straight into advanced yoga…….
So there I am, blissed out on the massage table. Zinfandel Blush has marinated me like a chicken breast. The whales are climaxing in the background, and I’m drifting off to sleep.
She runs her oil-covered hands down my arm and gives it a gentle tug to stretch out my stiff shoulder, but it just keeps coming, until pop! It comes clean out of the socket. Dislocated.
Believe me, it gets funnier! For the complete, hilarious post go here – BBC Ouch!
This is an emotive post shared by Sheryl from A Chronic Voice blog. She gives us a Trigger Warning that this post is about chronic illness and thoughts on suicide – it may be potentially triggering. For help contact:
The Fears of Aging with Sickness
While I did not ask others with chronic illness how they feel about this, I know that many of us share the same sentiments. It feels like suicide is always an option on the table. And putting suicide aside, the number one cause of death in the world is due to chronic illness as well.
We are living out that rainy day scenario others are saving up for. Modern medicine combined with pieces of complementary therapies is like an umbrella. But one that is never big enough to shield us completely from the downpour. My lovely caregivers are also getting older by the day, and everyone grows naturally weaker with age.
To read the full post visit A Chronic Voice
I wrote this last year but it is still so relevant and I hope helpful! Part 2 tomorrow…
Pain, pain go away…..if only it were so easy. A new facebook friend is suffering terribly at the moment, whilst trying to do what the hospital requires for a spinal cord stimulator trial. Trying to offer some words of advice and encouragement has got me thinking and I thought I’d have a stab at talking about opiate use in chronic pain.
I don’t know what the policies of other pain centres are, but the consultants at St Thomas’ recognise that opiate substances – control drugs such as morphine, pethidine, tramadol, oxycodone etc – are not necessarily the right fit for every type of pain. The majority of what I am going to write is from personal experience – both in my other life as a palliative care nurse, and from now living with chronic pain. I’ll try not to become too medical and I may spread this over several posts as I really don’t want to bore you! I have done a little medical reading to ensure that I am giving you the latest thinking and for those with medical minds I will list some of the articles that I’ve read – although I wouldn’t necessarily recommend them, bedtime reading they ain’t!!
In cancer care and particularly palliative care, opiates have long been the gold standard for pain relief. Diamorphine, pure “medical” heroin, was the drug of choice when I started working in cancer care, but even then nerve or neuropathic pain was a nightmare for us to control. Try to visualise your nervous system as a circuit board whose main branch is the spinal cord, which is supplied with its impulses to & from a source that is your brain. The channels of the circuit are made up of building blocks, cells called neurons, which transmit the messages to & from the brain. The unknown quantity is: in the circuit that processes and transmits pain, which neurons are those providing the output that drives the pain network within the brain where chronic pain is present. Still with me? In chronic pain the firing activity of the neurons is changed, but it is still unknown quite how it is altered.
I have sat in some very complicated pain management sessions in my time when the descriptions of the different pain receptors almost went over my head. All you need to know is that the building blocks contain different receptors which convey different sensations and so respond to different drugs. Think of a lock and a key – a particular key (the drug) is needed to open a lock (the pain receptor). When opiate drugs are used for pain control, the receptor that responds to morphine etc is Mu, but there is now known to be an optimum time period for use of these drugs – probably about 3 months. After a while the opiates cause the down regulation of the Mu receptors, which means that fewer receptors need more opiate molecules to get the same feeling of relief. Eventually the loss of these receptors means that our bodies cannot regulate the feeling of pain so well – and produces what the medics call “hyperalgesia”. When your consultant tells you that the opiates may be increasing your pain rather than reducing it, this is what he is talking about!
But where does this leave me, the person with the chronic pain? To be continued….
“Personalised Medicine & Opioid Analgesic Prescribing for Chronic Pain: Opportunities and challenges” Stephen Bruehl et al, The Journal of Pain, Feb 2013, Vol 14
“Increased Pain Sensitivityin Chronic Pain Subjects on Opioid therapy….” Yi Zhang et al, American Academy of Pain Medicine, 2015, Oxford University Press
“Narcotic Drugs for treatment of Chronic Pain: a double edged sword” Peter Ullrich, Spine-health.com, 2012
“How Pain killers sometimes increase Chronic Pain” Stepahnie Burke, Spine-health.com, 2013
Think this is enough……I apologise if this is too medical, the next part won’t be!
I had a Personal Independence Payment medical review this week (more of that another time!). My GP had requested a home visit, mainly as my dysautonomia/fainting is so much worse, but I was merely given another appointment a little nearer to home. As it seemed near impossible to tie up the DWP who would have received the letter, with the review service (formerly known as ATOS) we decided between us that Duncan would try to get me there, but the GP was adamant not without all the letters that she had been sent recently. Half a tree later we left her surgery – and this was just the correspondence since the beginning of the year.
The day after the assessment, I received a copy of the letter dictated by my new rheumatologist to my GP. Lovely man, but the person who he describes in this letter doesn’t appear to be me. In fact she is completely at odds to the lady described a month earlier by the orthopaedic consultant, after a dislocation that required a trip to A&E! The history of my shoulder pain was wrong, and apparently I have “a reasonable range of movement” …”with some discomfort” – ahem, I am hypermobile with very stretched ligaments & tendons so everything moves in every direction and I was actually referred for PAIN management. Apparently my “other joints are normal” and I “really know how to manage my hypermobility syndrome”.
The ortho consultant said “she has been having pain in that shoulder for some time and was seen by my colleague 2 years ago…” and “on examining her shoulder it moves through a reduced range and her x rays show progressive glenohumeral joint arthritis, with a marked difference from 2 years ago”. He goes on to say “Unfortunately Claire has a very difficult problem to solve. She has EDS….& has developed arthropathy within the glenohumeral joint”. I was told 2 years ago that if I were 30 years older I would be whisked in for a shoulder replacement……this time the consultant could see a huge deterioration on x ray, but again explained that a shoulder replacement with my EDS is just not really an option as my ligaments & cartilages are so stretched. A shoulder replacement would not stand up to recurrent dislocations!
So, the thing that the two specialists agree is that I have a really good knowledge of EDS and both do recommend conservative treatment with physiotherapy – again! The physio with expertise in hypermobility syndromes who the rheumatologist recommends is out of area; my old physio who works with the ortho consultant is no longer able to see me on the NHS as he is a Consultant physio……..
This is the reality of a condition that affects multiple body systems with no one person leading the care! So now the search for a physio, who understands that I can’t be “fixed” but need ongoing rehab, is ON!!!
Another great post for Ehlers Danlos Awareness month, this time from Hannah at Sunshine and Spoons blog. As a child growing up with aches and pains, dislocations, sprains, dizzy spells, clumsiness, migraines, circulation problems….it really was just how life was as no one even thought to join the dots, let alone consider a syndrome that might be responsible. I never even heard the name “Ehlers Danlos” until my late 30s – although Marfans was mentioned to me aged 20.
I do know about EDS now and have made it my business to as so many with rare illnesses need to. The result has been that I recognise my kids are growing up symptomatic – although getting a diagnosis is proving difficult as referrals are pushed from the desk of one consultant to another – and understanding that not everyone has pain daily, struggles to keep up with hand writing in class, is constantly twisting an ankle or popping a joint. One son is living with severe migraines for which we seem to be in a constant loop of changing medication to bring some control as he is about to sit his A level exams. His long neck gives him daily pain and undoubtedly contributes to his migraines. My daughter, aged 14, has dislocations, daily joint pain, dizzy spells, writing problems…..the eldest, the student engineer aged 21, is hypermobile, has a sternal “deformity”, clumsiness, dizzy spells – sound familiar?? All three, whilst very bright, suffer massive anxiety to such an extent that over recent years we have visited CAMHS, Heads Together, use of anti depressants and mindfulness techniques. I feel a whole post coming on…..being the age they are, mum has not been able to pin them down for a quote as I write this!!
So without further ado let me introduce some great children who have spoken to Hannah:
“This post may be a little hard for you to read. I know I had tears in my eyes more than once while typing this up.
If you’ve been hanging around Sunshine and Spoons for very long, you know that at least 3 of my 4 kids have Ehlers Danlos Syndrome, which they inherited from me. Davy (3) and Nano (7) don’t really understand it yet, but Katie (9) does. She goes back and forth between being proud of being a zebra to asking why God would make her have EDS and all of the pain that goes along with it.
Kids are supposed to be able to run and play. They shouldn’t have to deal with chronic pain and fatigue. They shouldn’t have to spend their childhoods at doctors’ offices, wearing braces and explaining random bruises.
But, that’s not how things always work. I interviewed 25 kids who have EDS to see what it’s really like to be a child or young person with the disorder. “
For the remainder of the post and the children’s quotes please click on the following link
I am really pleased to have contributed, in a small and rather quiet way, to this video that Jenni has put together for EDS Awareness month. Jenni is a vlogger/blogger and goes by the name 1nvisibl3Girl – please have a look at her channel & blog and the social media sites of the other great (very young!!) EDSers on this short film!!
“This video is all about living with Ehlers Danlos syndrome (EDS) as the zebras I have been lucky enough to get to know, and I, share our own experience of this chronic, invisible illness. We talk about what EDS is to us, how we manage our symptoms, how EDS has changed our lives, why we started our own EDS based blog or vlog and our hopes and dreams for the future. We hope this is shared as much as possible this May as it is #EDSawarenessmonth so people can learn what it is really like to live with EDS but also to support those also living with the disease. I know it is long but please watch it all if you can. There are some amazing people describing some very difficult things in their own words. This is a project I am very proud of.” Jenni Pettican
This article appears on the Ehlers Danlos Support UK Facebook page during EDS Awareness month. It offers great tips for managing the dislocations that are a part of every day life for us zebras.
“‘I’M JUST POPPING OUT FOR A WHILE!’
Article by Jason Parry, Highly Specialist Physiotherapist
One of the most common questions I get asked is how to manage dislocations and subluxations, which is quite strange if I happen to be popping to the shops for some milk at the time. However, in all seriousness, this really is one of the most frequent questions I face in clinic when treating many of my hypermobile patients and let’s face it, it really is no laughing matter.
So where do I begin? Well, a good place is to firstly understand the difference between a dislocation and a subluxation.
A dislocation is defined as “displacement of a bone from its natural position in the joint”. This is where the two bones that form a joint fully separate from each other. If we consider a shoulder, for example, which is a ball and socket joint, a dislocation occurs when the ball (which forms the top of the arm bone) slips entirely out of the socket it should sit in within the shoulder. This can happen in any direction, but the main point is that the two bones completely separate. Ouch!
A subluxation is basically defined as “a partial dislocation”. It can be no less painful than a full dislocation, but the two bones that form the joint are still partially in contact with each other. So once again, if we consider the shoulder joint as an example, the ball which completely came out of the socket in the dislocation example above would still be partially sitting in the socket in a subluxation.
These events can happen in almost any joint, but some are more commonly involved than others, with shoulders, knees, thumbs and ankles seemingly some of the most prevalent.
Both dislocations and subluxations can be painful, irritating, infuriating and occasionally debilitating problems. However, they don’t need to ruin your life and can, with patience, effort, trust and time, be managed. Not necessarily completely eliminated, but managed.
Let’s first look at the reasons why dislocation or subluxation happens with a quick anatomy lesson. The main reason is abnormal collagen composition. Collagen – primarily Type 1 collagen – is the main structural protein of the various connective tissues in the body. It is found in ligaments, tendons and joint capsules, and makes ligaments and tendons strong like little ‘guy ropes’. What do ligaments and tendons and joint capsules do? Ligaments connect bone to bone, tendons connect muscles to bone, and joint capsules are like envelopes of tissue that surround a moveable (synovial) joint. So we can see that these ligaments, tendons and joint capsules play an important role in giving a moveable joint its stability.
Let us now consider hEDS (hypermobile type EDS). This is a Heritable Disorder of Connective Tissue (HDCT) caused by a defect in the structure, production or processing of collagen, which makes the collagen in ligaments and tendons stretchier (more lax). This means that joints are potentially less stable – hence greater propensity for subluxations and dislocations.
There are other reasons for dislocations and subluxations:
• Altered muscle tone: This can often account for dislocations. Inappropriate muscle patterning, in which certain muscles around a joint ‘switch on’ when they shouldn’t and then inappropriately work way too hard, can often ‘pull’ a joint out of place. The joint then also becomes easier to slip out, of course, if it is more lax in the first place. Muscle fatigue, spasms and stress can all play a part in this too.
• Impaired proprioception: Proprioception is the body’s ability to sense position and movement within joints and enables us to know where our limbs are ‘in space’ without us looking. It relates to coordination. Impaired joint position sense can cause joints to slip out of place.
• Repeated overstretching: Otherwise known as too many ‘party tricks’. I know many of you guys have the capacity to ‘amaze’ people with your ability to wrap yourselves into weird and wonderful positions that the rest of us gawp at. You know, those tricks you did as kids, popping your shoulders in and out of joint, or folding your legs over your head? Well, stop – it’s no good for you! Repeated overstretching to that degree will only exacerbate the laxity and the chances of the joints slipping out of place. I’m certainly not saying that you should never do stretches, but I am saying give up the party tricks and don’t stretch your joints way beyond ‘normal’ range. Just because the joint ‘goes there’ doesn’t mean you should take it there. So please forget about that career as a contortionist with Cirque du Soleil.
• The shape of your joint surfaces: Some of you may be born with shallow-shaped joint sockets or other bony shaped ‘anomalies’ that predispose a joint to possibly slipping out of position more easily. Unfortunately, that just may happen to be the shape of your skeleton.
• Traumatic incident: One of the most common reasons for a joint to come out of place for those of us without EDS. Traumatic incidents can happen to anyone, but your extra joint laxity may actually work a little in your favour with this one; it may prevent you damaging some of your ligaments/tissues in the way that a non-hypermobile person who suffered a traumatic dislocation probably would.
How often can these subluxations/dislocations happen, I hear you ask? The answer to that is different for different people. Some people get them maybe just once or twice a year, others once a month. Some people get them once a week and others once a day. Some people get them repeatedly throughout the day and in some people they never seem to stop. Either way, we need to try to reduce the frequency if we can, and manage them when they do happen.
In some people, the joint just finds its own way back in to place, and phew, what a relief. But in others, once the joint slips out, it won’t go back in again. The pain kicks in (often big time) and the most common and perfectly understandable reaction is… PANIC! At this point, some people pick up the phone and call for an ambulance – well actually they don’t; they’re often writhing in agony or they can’t actually pick up the phone especially if its their shoulder or wrist out of place, but someone else does – and off to A&E they go.
BUT WHOA THERE! STOP FOR A SECOND, DON’T PANIC, BREATHE NORMALLY AND STAY CALM!!
Panic causes more stress and more muscle spasms. Stress and muscle spasms cause more pain, and then there is less chance of resolving the dislocation. Easy for me to say, I know, sitting here with my joints all lovely and located without the associated agony. But trust me, if you want to start managing this situation and taking control, then this is what you’re going to have to begin to practise. Because what happens at A&E? Well, if they aren’t already fed up with you turning up 100 times a month and starting to get all ratty towards you – not fair I know – they will often give you pain relief of some sort (perhaps Entonox) or they may go the whole hog and give you a general anaesthetic. Then they’ll yank your joint back into place. All good, right? Not so, because often, maybe within minutes, the joint will pull itself back out of place again because of the muscles still spasming around the joint, and you’re back to where you started.
So what else do our A&E docs then sometimes do? They stick you in a plaster cast to ‘hold’ the joint in place. Imagine, then, the battle going on underneath it – your joint trying to pull itself back out of position again while being forcibly held in place by the cast. Sounds painful to me, and often is – and when then do you take the cast off? This doesn’t sound like a viable management solution to me or a good way of life for you.
So what should you do if your joint comes out? Here are the 6 key principles that I suggest you need to start incorporating in order to begin to get a grip of managing this situation as opposed to this situation managing you. The main aims are to stay calm, keep on top of the pain and allow the muscles to relax. It takes lots of practise and patience, but it can be done.
1. Breathe : Use slow deep, relaxed breaths. Try using some relaxation techniques, there are lots of different ones out there. As painful as it is, and as difficult as it may sound, you need to start to try to take control of this situation. So start to learn how to breathe through it.
2. Use Painkillers: Oh yes! I’m not a monster you know; I know how painful this situation can be. I’m not for a minute suggesting that you should just sit there and ‘suck it up!’ For goodness sake, take some appropriate painkillers (analgesia) if you have some. However, note the word ‘appropriate’. You should only ever take analgesia according to the dosage indicated by your prescriber. Never take more than the suggested dose. You might feel like it may not be enough at the time, but if it can take some of the edge off, then that’s a great start. Please don’t ever overdose.
What about Entonox (commonly known as gas and air) as pain relief? I am aware that some people have access to Entonox at home, or use it at A&E. There can be a role for it, but this must be used with caution. Prolonged use can lead to vitamin B12 deficiency and can interfere with DNA synthesis, not to mention cultivating a dependency, which are all big issues.
3. Support the joint: You need to try to make yourself as comfortable as possible (I know it’s not easy). Use pillows or a sling of you have one. Find a comfortable resting position as much as possible. This allows the muscles to relax and stop spasming.
4. Try heat: Hot water bottles, wheat bags and a warm bath can all help to relax spasming, overactive muscles.
5. Distraction: Try to take your focus away from the pain and the situation. Listen to music, watch a film if you can, talk to friends/family, try a relaxation CD/MP3. This can be helpful as a short-term pain relieving strategy. Again, it can help muscles relax.
6. Gentle massage: Sometimes gentle massage around the joint can help relax the muscles enough to be able to gently re-locate the joint or for the joint to just slip back into place by itself.
What if it doesn’t go back, I hear you scream (and I do hear you scream)?!
Don’t expect the joint to go straight back in. It is often not unusual for joints to remain out of place for hours or even days. But once it’s out, it’s out. It’s not going out even more, so try not to panic.
Isn’t it dangerous though? What about damage? Am I damaging my joint if it comes out?
It is highly unlikely. Your joint laxity allows for your ligaments and capsules to stretch. It is mostly just distressing as opposed to damaging.
When should you go to hospital or get help?
• if the limb starts to change colour due to a lack of blood supply
• if your limb goes completely numb
• if you have tried strategies 1-6 above, have waited a reasonable amount of time, and are still desperately struggling.
But as mentioned earlier, it is not unusual for A&E to relocate your joint only for it to pop straight out again or when the anaesthetic wears off. Therefore you need to learn to stay calm and to start to self-manage.
One of the most valuable things you can do after a subluxation/dislocation is to reflect on the event once you have had a chance to calm down. Were you moving in a way that normally causes the joint to dislocate? Did you move without thinking? What was your posture like? Were you tired or overdoing it? Were you stressed about something? It is so valuable to look for triggers as to why the event may have happened. It may have been none of these reasons, but if it was, then you can hopefully learn to avoid repeating them in the future.
Finally, prevention is better than cure! It is obviously better if we can prevent these situations occurring in the first place as opposed to having to deal with them. To that end, the following can hopefully help to reduce the frequency of such occurrences:
• physiotherapy to learn to control the muscles around joints and to use the right ones
• rehab to improve proprioception
• the possible use of supports/braces if required
• trying to manage stress and anxieties.
But ultimately, stay calm! The more you stay calm when these events happen and manage it yourself, the easier it should get each time.”